Problems again....its killing me. I wanna talk about it so bad...but I won't because its the day before his birthday...and I want him to be happy on his birthday...but at the same time I want to hurt him just as badly. Yes I know I say things to hurt him too...but I think when I say them! For christs sake....this hurts so bad. Everything is falling apart around me again, and I think I may be kicked out soon. And I...I wanna leave MI but I don't wanna go without him. Because I know we can work things out and get out of this mess again. But he won't even talk about it at all, and its complicating the hell out of things!!! Other than that...I have a new job closer to my friends, will probably be losing my house, and car soon. Which is going to f'ing kill me. I'm packing stuff up slowly and just waiting for the hat to completely drop. I know its going to happen the minute my grandpa gets back home from hunting up north. I haven't talked to him in awhile. My mom is pissed at me, and I just...I need to get away from my family! I want so badly for things to work out the right way this time...I just I can't be with family anymore. The only 'family' I've ever known have really been my dads side and my friends. But I have a feeling that things are going to go from bad to worse before they get better. I really wish they wouldn't but I don't necessarily get to choose.